Last September, Joey and I were camping. One evening, sitting at the picnic table outside of our cabin eating some burgers, I asked him what he thought about trying to have a baby this winter.
This wasn’t the first time we had discussed children. We’d both typically been on the same page: We wanted kids, but we wanted the time to be right. Sitting there with the person I loved and our sweet dog during my favorite season in the middle of the woods, I suddenly knew I didn’t need to wait anymore. And, even better, Joey felt the same.
“It’s going to change everything,” he said seriously.
“I know,” I replied.
For the first time, this didn’t seem to scare either of us enough to change our minds.
It has been almost six months since that conversation, and we have something to tell you guys.
This is not a drill.
WE’RE HAVING A BABY!
I’ve practiced writing this post in my head dozens of times since we heard the news (and, let’s be honest, before it was ever a fact), and I guess I’m still at a loss for words on how to describe how we feel.
We’re incredibly excited, of course. Nervous, sometimes terrified, sure. Apprehensive? Sometimes. Madly in love with this little bean? Constantly.
I know what you’re thinking:
WHAT!? HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN KEEPING THIS SECRET?!?
About 12 weeks. I’m one of those weird cases who knew she was pregnant pretty much from the get-go. (More on that later.)
Ugh, fine. Well, when are you due?
September 20th. Almost exactly a year after we had that camping conversation.
Do you know what you’re having? Will you tell us THAT at least?
I don’t know — yet! But we’re planning to find out. And, yes, I will tell you when I know. Y’all know I’m too type A to not plan everything — and then share the plans with you guys.
How did Joey react?
Once we both got over the shock, we basically grinned at each other with tears in our eyes for the next hour. Now that it feels more real, he’s mostly just excited.
How have you been feeling?
Depends on the day, but mostly good. I’ve actually been writing posts along the way to share after I made the announcement so I would remember everything. Stay tuned over the next couple of weeks for those updates. Spoiler alert: Growing a human is not always a glamorous affair.
So…are we done with the secrets now?
Yes! Promise. I hate secrets, and it has been KILLING me not to tell everyone I talk to. I mean, I’m thinking about it all the time. The question “so what’s new?” has become the bane of my existence.
So there you have it! Our big news. As I said, over the next few days I’ll be sharing a few old posts about my first trimester experience (for anyone out there who needs a little commiseration), but then it will be all new stuff again. And I will do my best not to talk about the baby all the time, but…well…no promises. It’s kind of a big part of our lives now.